If you only read the books that everyone else is reading, you can only think what everyone else is thinking.
Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood 

The one thing I’ll keep from this book. ‘cause there is always something.

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Last Week Tonight with John Oliver: #GoodbyeGeckos

Este hombre e’ lo maximo xD

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Every Episode of Friends, Ranked

I know we’d only been living a hollow image of life up until this list existed

Perché “quello che c’è tra noi” merita l’attesa.
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Like today’s lovely after-work :)

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zis Bidermanas Bord de Seine. Paris (1976)

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Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Beethoven’s Last Night (Full Album)

1. Overture

[On a late night in the spring of 1827 the city of Vienna is experiencing the largest lightning storm in its long history. Within a large disheveled room, Ludwig Von Beethoven is slumped over his piano and on the piano sits the just completed manuscript for his Tenth Symphony. It is his final, and he is certain, his greatest work.]

SINCE THE TIME WHEN RA AND ISIS

RAISED THE SPHINX OUT OF THE SAND

AND APOLLO DREAMED ATHENA

AND MEN BEGAN TO UNDERSTAND

THAT WHEN DARKNESS FOLDS ON DARKNESS

IN THE RESTLESS TIDES OF NIGHT

AND LIGHTNING RAISES SHADOWS

AND FOR MOMENTS GIVES THEM LIFE

IT’S BEEN SAID BY THOSE WHO PONDER

THAT IT SURELY IS A SIGN

THAT A LIFE TOUCHED BY THE STARS

IS NOW RUNNING OUT OF TIME

AND THAT SOMEWHERE IN THAT DARKNESS

IN THE HEART OF THAT GREAT STORM

THE WORLD RETURNS A SOUL

THAT THE GODS CAUSED TO BE BORN

AND THIS WAS SUCH A STORM

THE KIND ONE RARELY SEES IN LIFE

FOR IN A ROOM NOW FILLED WITH SHADOWS

THE GREAT BEETHOVEN WAS SPENDING

HIS LAST NIGHT

[From the shadows a beautiful spirit, Fate, and her deformed dwarf son, Twist, emerge to inform Beethoven of what he has already deeply suspected, that this is to be his last night on earth. They are accompanied by numerous spirits and ghosts from his past.]

2. Midnight

[TWIST]

AND IN THE DARK HE SITS ALONE

TO WATCH HIS FINAL HOURS BLEEDING

WHILE UNCONCERNED UPON THE WALL

THE CLOCK IT TICKS AWAY THE TIME

NO NEED FOR WORDS FOR IN THE DARK

ALL WORDS HAVE LONG SINCE LOST THEIR MEANING

STILL WHEN THEY WHISPER IN HIS EAR

HE TRIES TO READ BETWEEN THE LINES

WHAT I SEE IN THE NIGHT

WHAT I FEEL IN YOUR HEART

ALL YOUR DREAMS ALL YOUR LIES

CAN YOU TELL THEM APART

SEE THE HANDS ON THE CLOCK

ARE YOU WATCHING THEM TURN

FOR YOUR CANDLE IS QUITE LOW

WE’VE BEEN WATCHING IT BURN

DO YOU LIE HERE AWAKE

AS THE SHADOWS LOOK ON

SHOULD THEY CRY FOR YOUR SAKE

SHOULD YOU SLEEP IN THEIR ARMS

FOR THE SHADOWS SEE ALL

AND THEY RARELY FORGET

EVERY DREAM THAT YOU’VE HAD

EVERY ACT YOU REGRET

3. Fate

[GHOSTS & SPIRITS]

FAITH AND BELIEF

AND RETREAT

WHEN YOU’RE STANDING ALL ALONE

WITH YOUR DREAMS IN THE DARK

NEVER KNOWING WHAT IS REAL

IN THE SHADOWS YOU MEET

NEVER KNOWING WHAT IS TRUE

IN THE ANSWERS YOU SEEK

NEVER KNOWING IF

FATE SHE HEARS ME

FATE STAND NEAR ME

FATE STATE CLEARLY

WHETHER THERE WILL BE ANOTHER CARD

RETRIEVE US

TIME DECEIVES US

FAITH SHE HEARS US

BUT SHE DOESN’T LISTEN VERY HARD

AS SHE DRIFTS THROUGH OUR LIVES

TOSSING COINS INTO THE AIR

WATCH THEM TWIST

WATCH THEM FALL

TURNING HOPE INTO DESPAIR

WATCH THEM TWIST

WATCH THEM FALL

THEN SHE SUDDENLY REVIVES

EVERY DREAM THAT WE’VE HAD

AND WE FIND OURSELVES

ALIVE

BELIEVE ME

FATE STANDS NEAR ME

FATE STATE CLEARLY

WHETHER THERE WILL BE ANOTHER CARD

RECEIVE US

TIME DECEIVES US

THE ONLY MOMENT IN OUR LIVES

THAT EVER REALLY MATTERED FATE

IS NOW

[With each successive crack of lightning the spirits move closer and eventually Beethoven finds their distraction unbearable.]

4. What Good This Deafness

[BEETHOVEN]

WHAT GOOD THIS DEAFNESS

THAT MY WHOLE LIFE I HAVE DREAD

WHAT GOOD THIS DEAFNESS

WITH THESE VOICES IN MY HEAD

WHAT GOOD THIS DEAFNESS

IF THIS PRATTLE I MUST HEAR

IF I WERE BLIND I’M SURE THEY WOULDN’T DISAPPEAR

[TWIST]

DID YOU REALLY WANT TO BELIEVE WHAT YOU’RE SAYING

DID YOU REALLY WANT TO BE HERE ALONE

HAVE I INTERRUPTED A MOMENT OF PRAYING

WHILE YOUR LIFE’S DECAYING

YOUR SINS ARE THEY WEIGHING

WHILE YOU’VE BEEN CARVING YOUR STONE

ALL ON YOUR OWN

DID YOU REALLY WANT TO SIT HERE IN SILENCE

COULD IT BE THAT BROODING IS PART OF YOUR ART

IS IT AN EXTENSION OF ARTISTIC LICENSE

A MOODY DEFIANCE

OF ALL OF LIFE’S TYRANTS

WHILE YOU’VE BEEN SEARCHING YOUR HEART

ALONE WITH US IN THE DARK

[Beethoven implores the spirits to leave him alone, but Twist tells him that as shadows they only exist by the light that Beethoven’s life has cast and as that light is fading, it is only natural that they should cling to its last moments of illumination. As the clock strikes midnight their conversation is suddenly interrupted by the appearance of Mephistopheles. His presence causes all the other spirits to shrink silently back to the corners of the room.]

[Mephistopheles informs Beethoven that he has come to collect the composer’s soul. Faced with eternal damnation, the terrified composer claims that it cannot be his time, that he has yet to complete his Tenth Symphony. Mephistopheles looks at the manuscript and then with seemingly uncharacteristic generosity, offers to give him as much additional time as he needs, but only if he will tell him what parts he plans to add or change. Beethoven is forced to admit that it is his masterpiece and he would not change a single note. His bluff called, Beethoven still can not believe that this is how his life must end. Mephistopheles assures him that not only is it so, but his reaction is the nearly universal response from every man who is about to be condemned to hell. But he then tells Beethoven he is a very fortunate man, for he has decided to offer the maestro something very rarely offered to humans at the end of their time, a second chance, a possible way out of his most unfortunate dilemma.]

5. Mephistopheles

[MEPHISTOPHELES]

ALL OF YOUR LIFE NOW

YOU HAVE DENIED

THERE’D BE A TIME

WHEN YOU’D EVER DIE

STILL IT’S BEEN RUMORED THIS THING MUST BE

WHY IS IT THEN THAT YOU ACT SURPRISED

WHEN I APPEAR NOW TO BE YOUR GUIDE

WHY DO YOU HESITATE TO FOLLOW ME

SEE IT RISING

STARE AND WONDER

HEAR IT BECKON

YOU TO DANCE

FEEL IT HOLD YOU

TAKE YOU UNDER

I’M YOUR GOD OF SECOND CHANCE

AND NOW YOU CLAIM YOU ARE NOT PREPARED

SO MUCH TO DO YOU CAN NOT BE SPARED

STILL YOUR ENTREATIES DEATH WILL NOT HEAR

THE GRAVEYARD IS FILLED WITH IMPORTANT MEN

WHO COULD NOT BE SPARED BUT WERE IN THE END

AND SO I WHISPER NOW IN YOUR EAR

SEE IT RISING

STARE AND WONDER

HEAR IT BECKON

YOU TO DANCE

FEEL IT HOLD YOU

TAKE YOU UNDER

I’M YOUR GOD OF SECOND CHANCE

DOMINE

DOMINE

DOMINE

DOMINE

O DOMINE

O DOMINE

O DOMINE

O DOMINE

[The Devil then makes the composer an offer. If Beethoven will give him all his music, allowing Mephistopheles to wipe it from the memory of man, he will return his soul to him. Beethoven is overwhelmed by the situation. Fearing an eternity of damnation and torment he is desperate to reclaim his soul, but the thought of losing his music, his life’s work, causes him to hesitate.]

[Mephistopheles, sensing his confusion, offers to leave for one hour before returning for Beethoven’s answer. As the devil is turning to go, Beethoven notices that the hands of the clock are now turning faster than is normal. When he points this out to Mephistopheles, the devil replies that the maestro should consider it a final favor because where Beethoven is going, they never turn at all.]

[As the spirits cautiously re-emerge from the corners of the room, Beethoven agonizes over his decision.]

6. What Is Eternal

[BEETHOVEN]

AND HERE IN THE NIGHT

AS I FEEL THE INFERNO

I STARE IN THE DARK

THINKING WHAT IS ETERNAL

THE MAN OR THE MOMENT

THE ACT OR THE REASON

THESE THOUGHTS FILL MY HEAD

AS I CONTEMPLATE TREASON

OF DREAMS I HAVE HAD

AND DREAMS I HAVE PONDERED

WHEN LATE IN THE NIGHT

MY MIND IT WOULD WANDER

TO THINGS I HAVE DONE

AND THEN QUICKLY REGRETTED

WHILE DENYING VICES

MY LIFE HAD SELECTED

AND I THINK WHAT I’VE DONE

OR HAVE YET TO BEGIN

AND THE MAN I’VE BECOME

AND THE MAN THAT I’VE BEEN

NOW CAUGHT IN A WALTZ

WITH THE ETERNAL DANCER

I’M COURTED BY DEATH

BUT DEATH ISN’T THE ANSWER

I SAY

ALL I WAS

MEANT TO BE

COULD I

SUDDENLY

JUST DECIDE

NOT A THOUGHT

WOULD SURVIVE

COULD IT BE

MY LIFE’S WORTH

ENDED THERE

WITH MY BIRTH

IF I COULD SEE SOMEONE

WHO’S BEEN THERE BEFORE ME

AND TRADED HIS SOUL

FOR A MOMENT OF GLORY

HIS PENANCE OR MERCY

BY SPIRITS DEBATED

WHILE JUDGED ON A SCALE

THAT’S BEEN HEAVILY WEIGHTED

AND WHAT HAVE I DONE

COULD THERE BE SUCH A SIN

IN THIS MAN I’VE BECOME

IN THIS MAN THAT I’VE BEEN

NOW CALLING TO GOD

FROM THE PIT’S VERY BOTTOM

I PRAY HE FORGIVES

EVERY SIN I’VE FORGOTTEN

THIS DAY

AND WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT

THAT MY FATE IT WOULD CONJURE

THIS TWIST IN THE ROAD

ON WHICH I HAVE WANDERED

EACH VISION AND DREAM NOW

COMPLETELY DISMEMBERED

TO GIVE ONE’S WHOLE LIFE

AND FIND NOTHING’S

REMEMBERED

AND WHAT GOOD IS A LIFE

THAT LEAVES NOTHING BEHIND

NOT A THOUGHT OR A DREAM

THAT MIGHT ECHO IN TIME

THE YEARS AND THE HOURS

THE SECONDS AND MINUTES

AND EVERYTHING THAT

MY LIFE HAS PLACED IN IT

BETRAYED

BETRAYED

BETRAYED

THE THINGS I HAVE DONE

THE PLACES I’VE BEEN

THE COST OF MY DREAMS

THE WEIGHT OF MY SINS

AND EVERYTHING THAT

I’VE GATHERED IN LIFE

COULD IT BE LOST

COULD IT BE LOST IN THIS

COULD IT BE LOST IN THIS

NIGHT

[Crushed by the dilemma he finds himself in and unable to reach a decision, Beethoven tries to recall the particular actions in his life that have led to his damnation. In anger, he confronts Fate for having dealt him such a cruel hand in life. Taken a back by his accusations, she offers to review his life with him and to change anything that he wishes to change.]

[Delighted with this unexpected proposition, Beethoven accepts. When she asks where he would like to start, Beethoven says the first thing he would change is his childhood. Fate takes him back through time where he finds himself as a young child sitting at a piano. He has just been cruelly slapped by a tutor for having failed to receive an appointment to the emperor’s court. His tutor is trying to create a new child wonder, similar to Mozart, but unlike Mozart, Beethoven is an awkward and gangly youth. Now, sitting alone at the piano, he is trying to console himself by playing a melody that he finds soothing. Beethoven recognizes the melody as the future Sixth Symphony and sitting down next to the child completes the tune. The child smiles at this kindly adult and after they talk for awhile, asks if they might meet again and finish the song. Beethoven reassures the child that one day that just might possibly happen.]

7. The Moment

[BEETHOVEN]

IN THIS WORLD OF CIRCUMSTANCE

CHILDREN NEVER FEAR FOREVER

AND THIS MOMENT THAT ENCHANTS

SOMEDAY WE MAY BOTH REMEMBER

THEN

MAYBE THEN

IF WE ARE STILL ALIVE

THEN

MAYBE THEN

THIS MOMENT WILL SURVIVE

THERE IS TIME IN EVERY WORD

THERE ARE WORDS IN EVERY REASON

AND THESE NOTES THAT ARE UNHEARD

ONE DAY THEY MAY FIND THEIR SEASON

THEN

MAYBE THEN

IF WE ARE STILL ALIVE

THEN

MAYBE THEN

THIS MOMENT WILL SURVIVE

THEN

MAYBE THEN

IF WE ARE STILL ALIVE

THEN

MAYBE THEN

THIS MOMENT WILL SURVIVE

[Beethoven turns to Fate and tells her, “I did not need this childhood. I did not need my mother to die when I was five. I did not need an alcoholic father or this sadistic teacher. I did not need such pain as a child. This! Remove all of this from my life.”]

[Fate tells him that it will all be as he wishes but before she grants his request he should be aware that when she removes the pains of his childhood he will also lose the inspiration that led to the Sixth Symphony. When faced with this choice, Beethoven realizes that he is not willing to lose the Sixth Symphony and withdraws his request.]

[Fate then says, “Surely there were happy times, magical moments?”]

[Beethoven replies, “There were some.”]

[“Like the first time you arrived in Vienna?”]

[“Like the first time I arrived in Vienna.”]

[Within seconds they are there witnessing a rhapsodizing Beethoven as a young man seeing Vienna for the first time.]

8. Vienna

[YOUNG BEETHOVEN]

SINCE I WAS A CHILD

I’VE SEEN HER IN A DREAM

A CAPTURED FAIRY TALE

THAT ECHOES CROSS MY LIFE

AND THOUGH I’VE COURTED HER

SHE’S ALWAYS STAYED UNSEEN

NOW ALL AT ONCE SHE

GLITTERS IN THE NIGHT

BUT THAT WAS YESTERDAY

AND THAT ALL WAS BEFORE

WHEN SHE WAS FAR AWAY

A SILHOUETTE OF DREAMS

BUT OTHERS WHISPERED

THAT SHE WAS SO MUCH MORE

AND SUDDENLY I NOW

KNOW WHAT THEY MEAN

DREAMS CHANGE

YEARS STRAIN

LOST ILLUSIONS

LAST STANDS

GOD’S HAND

ABSOLUTION

FOUND

FAIRY TALE SINS

VISIONS BY GRIMM

ALL FORGIVEN

LIVES SPENT IN VAIN

NEVER RECLAIMED

TAKE THEIR FINAL BOWS

PICTURES AND WORDS

VISIONS ABSURD

MADDENED POETS

ALL WITHIN SIGHT

FAILURES IN LIFE

WHO’LL NEVER KNOW IT

LAZARUS CRIES

THERE IN HIS EYES

HOPE HAS RISEN

DEPTH AND FACADE

ALL BEFORE ME NOW

[Together Fate and Beethoven watch the composer as a young man meeting his greatest idol, Mozart.]

9. Mozart

[Instrumental]

[Fate then reminds him of Theresa, his first and greatest love. Together they witness the young couple’s first night together. Young Beethoven is already being called the greatest piano player who has ever lived and Theresa is a Princess in the Hapsburg Empire. They are both deeply in love.]

10. The Dreams of Candlelight

[THERESA]

COULD THIS NIGHT IT LAST FOREVER

EVERY MOMENT HELD TOGETHER

AS IF IN A PERFECT TRANCE

AND SUCH A THING COULD BE

NO ONE ELSE WOULD UNDERSTAND IT

WE WOULD KNOW THE GODS HAD PLANNED IT

AND FOR SUCH A NIGHT AS THIS

THAT THEY GAVE MEMORY

AND WE WOULD LIVE INSIDE THIS NIGHT

WITHIN THE DREAMS OF CANDLELIGHT

IF YOU WOULD BRING THIS WISH TO LIFE

AND SPEND THIS NIGHT WITH ME

COULD THIS MOMENT LAST FOREVER

AND THIS DREAM OUR ONE ENDEAVOR

IF THE STARS WOULD JUST ENCHANT

AND TIME WOULD THEN AGREE

EVERY MOMENT OF TOMORROW

FROM THIS EVENING WE WOULD BORROW

IF THIS WISH THE STARS WOULD GRANT

AND GENTLY OVERSEE

AND WE WOULD LIVE INSIDE THIS NIGHT

WITHIN THE DREAMS OF CANDLELIGHT

IF YOU WOULD BRING THIS WISH TO LIFE

AND SPEND THIS NIGHT WITH ME

[Beethoven tells Fate that this was the happiest moment of his life. When she asks why did it have to end he replies, “Because it had to.”]

[Fate again inquires, “Why?”]

[“No woman wants to spend her life with a deaf musician, let alone a lady of such high station and beauty.”]

[Fate takes them to Beethoven’s parlor in 1801. There they see the composer slumped over the piano. He is going deaf and he realizes that it is irreversible. As far as he is concerned, his life is over.]

11. Requiem (The Filth)

VOCA ME BENEDICTUM !

SANA MEAM ANIMAM !

VOCA ME BENEDICTUM !

SANA MEAM ANIMAM !

[Beethoven believes that if Theresa were to have discovered that he was becoming deaf she would most certainly have left him. Before this could happen, he ended their relationship refusing to ever see her again.]

[Fate takes him outside of his town house where Theresa is watching him through the window. She can see him slumped over the piano. She does not understand why he has driven her out of his life. She knows that something is terribly wrong but has no idea what it is. Nothing that he could tell her would affect her love for him, but Beethoven cannot believe this.]

12. I’ll Keep Your Secrets

[THERESA]

LOST IN YOUR DARK

I SEE YOU THERE

WHAT DO YOU SEE BEYOND YOUR STARE

AND YOU BELIEVE THAT NO ONE ELSE CAN KNOW

WHAT IS THIS THING YOU KEEP INSIDE

OUT OF THE LIGHT AND WRAPPED IN PRIDE

ALWAYS AFRAID THAT ONE DAY IT WILL SHOW

I’LL KEEP YOUR SECRETS

I’LL HOLD YOUR GROUND

AND WHEN THE DARKNESS STARTS TO FALL

I’LL BE AROUND THERE WAITING

WHEN DREAMS ARE FADING

AND FRIENDS ARE DISTANT AND FEW

KNOW AT THAT MOMENT I’LL BE THERE WITH YOU

WHAT ARE THESE VOICES THAT YOU HEAR

ARE THEY TOO FAR OR FAR TOO NEAR

WHAT ARE THESE THINGS THAT ECHO FROM THE PAST

WHO ARE THESE GHOSTS YOU SEE AT NIGHT

THERE IN THE SHADOWS OF YOUR LIFE

THEY ONLY LIVE BY THE LIGHT YOU CAST

I’LL KEEP YOUR SECRETS

I’LL HOLD YOUR GROUND

AND WHEN THE DARKNESS STARTS TO FALL

I’LL BE AROUND THERE WAITING

WHEN DREAMS ARE FADING

AND FRIENDS ARE DISTANT AND FEW

KNOW AT THAT MOMENT I’LL BE THERE WITH YOU

I’LL BE AROUND

WHEN THERE’S NO REASON LEFT TO CARRY ON

AND EVERY DREAM YOU’VE EVER HAD IS GONE

AND THE DARK IS DEEP AND BLACK WITHOUT A SOUND

AND EVERY STAR HAS BEEN DRAGGED TO THE GROUND

KNOW AT THAT MOMENT I WILL BE AROUND

KNOW AT THAT MOMENT I WILL BE AROUND

[Beethoven says to Fate that it is now clear to him that it was his deafness that was the cause of all his unhappiness. “Remove this infirmity and my whole life will turn out right. If I had not gone deaf I would still have been able to perform live and Theresa and I would have had a life together.”]

[Fate assures him that it can be done but once again feels she must warn him of the consequences. She points out that before his deafness his career was more concentrated on live performance than on composing. The Muses of music had always been speaking to him but it was only after he became deaf that he could clearly hear their voices. “Your live performances were brilliant but they lasted but a moment, while your compositions will echo forever.”]

[She then shows Beethoven himself slipping deeper and deeper into his pit of total silence, but all the while the Muses continue to whisper in his ear.]

13. Dark

[THE MUSES]

FEEL THE DARKNESS SMILING

EVERY NOTE IS DYING

SILENCE IS REFINING

EVERY THOUGHT IN HIS HEART

STILL THE FATES ARE WEAVING

EVERY NOTE THAT’S BLEEDING

AS HE SITS THERE SEETHING

ALL ALONE IN THE DARK

ALONE IN THE DARK

ALONE IN THE …

BUT IN THE NIGHT

THE DARKNESS BREATHES

IF HE WILLS IT TO BE

BEFORE HIS EYES

THE MUSIC DIES

BUT HE WILL ALWAYS HEAR ME

HE SITS ALONE

THE CARDS ARE SHOWN

AS HE EMBRACES THE DARK

THE ONLY SOUND

THAT HE WILL HEAR

IS THERE IN HIS HEART

SOMEONE IS WHISPERING SOFTLY TO ME

SHADOWS OF THINGS THAT NO ONE CAN SEE

THEY ARE THERE FOR YOU IF YOU WANT THEM TO BE

YOU WANT THEM TO BE

YOU WANT THEM TO….

BUT IN THE NIGHT

THE DARKNESS BREATHES

IF HE WILLS IT TO BE

BEFORE HIS EYES

THE MUSIC DIES

BUT HE WILL ALWAYS HEAR ME

HE SITS ALONE

THE CARDS ARE SHOWN

AS HE EMBRACES THE DARK

THE ONLY SOUND

THAT HE WILL HEAR

IS THERE IN HIS HEART

14. Für Elise

[Instrumental]

[Beethoven once more relents when he realizes what he would lose. Fate then takes him to an alley outside a neighborhood tavern. It is years later and both Beethoven and Theresa are considerably older. Neither one of them has ever married. By pure chance Theresa sees Beethoven leaving a bar late at night but she does not make her presence known to him. From a distance she ponders what might have been.]

15. After The Fall

[THERESA]

TIME

ONLY TIME

COULD NEVER TAKE ME AWAY FROM YOU

AND WHY

SHOULD IT TRY

TIME NEVER CARES JUST WHAT WE DO

IT JUST SITS ON A STAR

AND GAZES DOWN

DROPPING ITS MOMENTS ALL AROUND

AND IF I COULD WISH UPON THAT STAR

I WOULD FIND WHAT YOU DREAM

AND THEN ASK GOD TO GRANT IT

I WANTED

TO SAY THIS

LONG BEFORE THIS DARK WOULD FALL

AT NIGHT I

WOULD PRAY THIS

THEN WONDER IF GOD HEARD AT ALL

FOR THE CHANCES I’VE HAD ARE NOW LONG GONE

AND THAT STAR IS NO LONGER WISHED UPON

FOR ON THIS NIGHT IT SEEMS TOO FAR AWAY

TRY

I HAVE TRIED

TO PRETEND THAT I DON’T CARE

BUT THEN

SLEEP ARRIVES

AND IN EVERY DREAM I FIND YOU THERE

BUT I DON’T WANT THE PAST TO BE MY LIFE

AND I DON’T WANT TO LIVE INSIDE THE NIGHT

BUT I DON’T WANT TO SEE YOUR SHADOW FADE

SO I SLEEP AND I DREAM

THOUGH I DON’T UNDERSTAND IT

I WANTED

TO SAY THIS

LONG BEFORE THIS DARK WOULD FALL

AT NIGHT I

WOULD PRAY THIS

THEN WONDER IF GOD HEARD AT ALL

FOR THE CHANCES I’VE HAD ARE NOW LONG GONE

AND THAT STAR IS NO LONGER WISHED UPON

FOR ON THIS NIGHT IT SEEMS TOO FAR AWAY

YOU CAN LIVE YOUR LIFE IN A THOUSAND WAYS

BUT IT ALL COMES DOWN TO THAT SINGLE DAY

WHEN YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU REGRET

WHAT YOU CAN’T RECLAIM BUT YOU CAN’T FORGET

IF I COULD JUST FALL BACK INTO MY LIFE

AND FIND YOU THERE INSIDE THIS NIGHT

AND LET ETERNITY JUST DRIFT AWAY

[Beethoven realizes that Theresa never would have cared about his deafness and is crushed as he realizes what might have been. To ease the pain of his regret, Fate then shows him glimpses of the future and the countless musicians who will be inspired by, and build upon the legacy of his music. She then allows him a final vision; a vision in which he improvises with musicians from the past by whom he was inspired , as well as musicians from the future, who will be inspired by him.]

16. A Last Illusion

[GHOSTS]

PRIUSQUAM PRAESENS

DAMNATUS SALVENS :

HIC HOMO NESCIENS.

QUAE FUTURA EST ?

EST PLANE VANUM?

MAGNIFICANDUM?

ERROR AUT SANUM?

O FORTUNA EST!

QUA?

THE PAST AND PRESENT

LOSS AND REDEMPTION

A MAN’S INTENTIONS

ALL THINGS YET TO BE

A LAST ILLUSION

TIME’S ABSOLUTION

FACT AND CONFUSION

FATE AND DESTINY BOUND

[Fate allows him to see some of the countless people who will be touched, consoled and transformed by his music; a woman who has lost her husband and finds peace in listening to the Pastoral Symphony, a child who is crippled forgetting his infirmity while lost in the Ode To Joy.]

[At the end of this last minute review of his life, he now realizes that the removal of what he considers the most painful moments of his life also removes the inspiration for what he considers his finest work. Change one thing and he changes it all.]

17. This Is Who You Are

[BEETHOVEN]

SOMETIMES

SLOWLY

TIME BRINGS REVELATION

WAITING

SOFTLY

FOR SOMEONE TO BELIEVE

THAT THE GHOSTS WE’VE HIDDEN OR LEFT TO DIE

HAVE NOW ARISEN AND WILL ARRIVE

TO SAY WHAT HAS HAPPENED

SAY WHAT HAS HAPPENED

SAY WHAT HAS HAPPENED

TO ME

AND WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT

THAT YOU’D BE THE ONE

THAT I WOULD HAVE FOUND HERE WAITING

LOST IN THIS NIGHT

UNTIL YOU ARRIVED

AND ALWAYS TOO BLIND TO SEE

AND WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT

THAT AFTER THIS TIME

THAT I’D BE THE ONE YOU’RE SAVING

NOW UNDISGUISED

THE GHOSTS THAT SURVIVE

NOW SAY WHAT WAS MEANT TO BE

I NEVER WANTED TO GIVE MY LIFE AWAY

WHO EVER THOUGHT IT WOULD MATTER ANY WAY

WANDERING INSIDE THIS NIGHT

FINDING PIECES OF A LIFE

NEVER SURE I’D EVER KNOW WHAT IT MEANS

IT’S THE STRANGERS IN YOUR LIFE

THAT YOU’D NEVER THOUGHT YOU’D MEET

IT’S THE HAND THAT PICKED YOU UP

WHEN YOU’RE LAYING IN THE STREET

IT’S THE HAND THAT CUT YOU DOWN

IT’S THE DREAM THAT SOMEONE SHARED

WHEN YOU THOUGHT THAT ALL WAS LOST

IT’S THE FRIEND THAT WASN’T THERE

YOU CAN RUN FROM ALL THE MEMORY

BUT NEVER GET THAT FAR

FOR IN THE END THEY’LL FIND YOU

FOR THIS IS WHO YOU ARE

CHANGE ONE NOTE

CHANGE ONE LINE

NOTHING’S GOING TO BE THE SAME

CHANGE ONE LOSS

CHANGE ONE CUT

EVERYTHING IS RE-ARRANGED

EVERY ACT

CRUEL OR KIND

LOST INSIDE OUR MEMORY

IF YOU LOOK

THERE IN TIME

YOU’LL FIND IT IN

FIND IT IN

FIND IT IN

YOU’LL FIND IT IN ME

18. Beethoven

[Instrumental]

[Once more back in 1827 Vienna, he tells Fate that he would not change a thing from his past and risk losing the music. The music is who he is, the reason for his existence. Also, having seen the influence of his music on so many lives, he knows that he could never give the music to Mephistopheles. Still, he does not wish to lose his soul. Desperately he ponders his dilemma.]

19. Mephistopheles’ Return

[BEETHOVEN]

IN EVERY LIFE

IT HAS BEEN SAID

THERE COMES A TIME TO JOIN THE DEAD

ADMIT THERE IS NO SECOND CHANCE

AND JOIN DEATH IN A FINAL DANCE

ACROSS THE FLOOR ETERNITY

UNTIL THE FINAL MOMENTS BLED

AND IN THE DARK TO TAKE HIS HAND

ACCEPT THAT IT IS TIME TO WED

I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M THINKING

BECAUSE ALL THAT I SEE

IS HIS FACE GRINNING

MEPHISTOPHELES

I NEED TO FIND AN ANSWER

FOR THIS ONE CAN NOT BE

WITHIN THE WORDS OF MEPHISTOPHEL…

[TOWARDS TWIST]

TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK

TELL ME WHAT YOU KNOW

DID YOU REALLY THINK

THAT THERE WOULD BE AN EVER AFTER

DO YOU THINK I’M SCARED

TELL ME DOES IT SHOW

WHEN INSIDE THIS DEAFNESS

I CAN ALWAYS HEAR HIS WHISPERING

[TOWARDS GHOSTS]

THERE COMES A TIME YOU DECIDE

WHAT FROM YOUR LIFE WILL BE REAL

WHAT SCARS YOU WILL KEEP ALIVE

WHAT YOU ARE WILLING TO HEAL

BUT CAN I GAMBLE THIS NIGHT

WITH EVERYTHING THAT I AM

AND CAN I ERASE MY LIFE

OR DO I STAY HERE AND BE DAMNED

[TOWARDS TWIST]

TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK

TELL ME WHAT YOU KNOW

DID YOU REALLY THINK

THAT THERE WOULD BE AN EVER AFTER

DO YOU THINK I’M SCARED

TELL ME DOES IT SHOW

WHEN INSIDE THIS DEAFNESS

I CAN ALWAYS HEAR HIS LAUGHTER

I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M THINKING

BECAUSE ALL THAT I SEE

IS HIS FACE GRINNING

MEPHISTOPHELES

I NEED TO FIND AN ANSWER

FOR THIS ONE CAN NOT BE

WITHIN THE WORDS OF MEPHISTOPHELES

[I]

DON’T NEED THIS PATH BEFORE ME

DON’T NEED FORGOTTEN GLORY

DON’T NEED THESE THREATS OF VIOLENCE

DON’T NEED ETERNAL SILENCE

DON’T NEED THESE MIDNIGHT VISIONS

DON’T NEED TO MAKE DECISIONS

DON’T NEED TO BE UNCERTAIN

DON’T NEED THIS FINAL CURTAIN

[II]

SOMEWHERE OUT THERE

HE STILL GAZES

AS I WANDER THROUGH HIS MAZES

DEATH AND LIFE HERE

TRUTH OR LIES

EVERY THOUGHT IS WELL DISGUISED

[III]

NOW

IT IS TOO LATE

THIS PATH TO TAKE

DON’T WANT TO LOSE MY LIFE THIS WAY

MEDUSA DREAMS

THE DEAD STILL SCREAM

DON’T WANT TO SEE MY LIFE BETRAYED

[IV]

ALL THESE THINGS ARE NOW BEFORE ME

ENDLESS DEATH OR TIMELESS GLORY

ON THIS NIGHT OF GHOSTS RETURNING

TO THE LIGHT OF BRIDGES BURNING

NOW IT IS TOO LATE

THIS PATH TO TAKE

DON’T WANT TO SEE MY LIFE BE…( TRAYED )

[TOWARDS TWIST]

TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK

TELL ME WHAT YOU KNOW

DID YOU REALLY THINK

THAT THERE WOULD BE AN EVER AFTER

DO YOU THINK I’M SCARED

TELL ME DOES IT SHOW

WHEN INSIDE THIS DEAFNESS

I CAN ALWAYS HEAR HIS LAUGHTER

I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M THINKING

BECAUSE ALL THAT I SEE

IS HIS FACE GRINNING

MEPHISTOPHELES

I NEED TO FIND AN ANSWER

FOR THIS ONE CANNOT BE

WITHIN THE WORDS OF MEPHISTOPHELES

THE COST OF PATIENCE

WHEN THERE’S NO TIME BEFORE ME

OF HESITATION

ALL FOR THIS TWISTED GLORY

AND MY SALVATION

THE COST OF HOW IT’S GOTTEN

THE COST OF WHAT’S GAINED

ALL FORGOTTEN

ALL FORGOTTEN

[When Mephistopheles returns to find his offer refused, he quickly replaces it with another. If Beethoven will only give him the un-released Tenth Symphony (which no one else has heard, so he reasons it will never be missed) he will return the maestro’s soul. Beethoven agonizes once more. The ghost of Mozart appears and tells him that it is the greatest musical piece ever created; it is the voice of God, and he cannot allow it to be destroyed. As the apparition of Mozart fades, he once again decides that he is unable to destroy this music.]

[In a final desperate attempt to obtain the Tenth Symphony, Mephistopheles points out through a window to a child sleeping in the gutter. He tells the old man that he owns this child’s life and in great detail lists all the horrors and suffering that she will experience in her short existence.]

20. Misery

[MEPHISTOPHELES]

THERE IS A CHILD AND SHE SLEEPS IN THE GUTTER

DON’T CLOSE YOUR EYES AND SHE’S EASY TO SEE

SHE IS NOT YOUR CHILD

SHE’S ALWAYS ANOTHER’S

AND THOSE YOU ABANDON

THEY ARE LEFT TO ME

AND KNOW I WILL IMPALE HER LIKE A KNIFE

LEAVE HER TWISTING DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY OF A VERY SHORT LIFE WITH ME

LISTEN NOW CLOSELY AND HEAR HOW I’VE PLANNED IT

PLEASE LET ME TELL YOU JUST HOW IT WILL BE

SHE’LL FEEL THE PAIN BUT SHE WON’T UNDERSTAND IT

SHE’LL THINK IT’S HER FATE

BUT WE’LL KNOW IT’S ME

AND KNOW I WILL IMPALE HER LIKE A KNIFE

LEAVE HER TWISTING DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY OF A VERY SHORT LIFE

WITH ME

SO LET ME KNOW

HAVE I BEEN CLEAR

THAT I WILL MAGNIFY EACH CUT AND EVERY BRUISE AND EVERY SINGLE CHILDHOOD TEAR

I’LL PICK HER SCABS

CRIPPLE A HAND

PUSH A FINGER IN EACH WOUND I MAKE

NOW TELL ME THEN

DO YOU UNDERSTAND

YOU UNDERSTAND?

YOU UNDERSTAND

YOU UNDERSTAND?

YOU UNDERSTAND

AND KNOW I WILL IMPALE HER LIKE A KNIFE

LEAVE HER TWISTING DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY OF A VERY SHORT LIFE

WITH ME

[If Beethoven will release to him this final musical creation, then Mephistopheles will give up all claims on the child, irrevocably removing himself and all his evil underlings from the child’s life for all eternity.]

[Beethoven immediately turns away, determined to give a firm and final no. But before the word can leave his lips he finds himself looking back out the window. He tries to convince himself that the child means nothing to him, especially when compared to the Tenth Symphony. But with every word disclaiming her, she digs deeper and deeper into his soul.]

21. Who Is This Child

[BEETHOVEN]

WHO IS THIS CHILD

THAT I’VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE

WHO IS THIS CHILD

THAT I’VE NOT SEEN TILL THIS DAY

WHO DARES TO FALL ASLEEP

OUTSIDE MY DOOR

IF WE SHOULD WAIT AWHILE

I’M SURE SHE’LL GO AWAY

TO BE INVOLVED WITH THIS

WOULD SURELY NOT BE WISE

FOR IN THE FINAL WORD

SHE MEANS NOTHING TO ME

I LEARNED THE TRICK IS

THAT WE JUST AVOID HER EYES

AND THE QUESTION

WHAT SHE MEANS TO …

WHAT IS THIS LIFE

THERE WILL BE OTHER LIVES

SOON TO ARRIVE

SURELY SOME WILL SURVIVE

SHE IS BUT ONE

AND THERE ARE MANY MORE

EACH THE SAME AS ANY OTHER

WHO IS THIS CHILD

WHAT DOES SHE MEAN TO ME

I CLOSE MY EYES

AND STILL HER FACE I SEE

SHE IS BUT ONE

HER KIND IS EVERYWHERE

CAN’T YOU SEE THERE’S NO WAY I SHOULD CARE

I NEED A MOMENT NOW

I HAVE TO CLEAR MY MIND

THERE IS A LIMIT LORD

JUST TO BEING KIND

THERE IS NO WAY IN LIFE

THAT EACH CHILD CAN BE SAVED

SHOULD I BE LOOKING WITH REGRET

AT EVERY GRAVE

THERE ARE NO GUARANTEES

IN LIFE SHE SHOULD BE WARNED

I’M NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR

THIS CHILD BEING BORN

I’M NOT RESPONSIBLE

IN ANY KIND OF WAY

FOR EVERY CHILD THAT LIFE CAN GATHER

WHAT IS THIS LIFE

THERE WILL BE OTHER LIVES

SOON TO ARRIVE

SURELY SOME WILL SURVIVE

SHE IS BUT ONE

AND THERE ARE MANY MORE

COULD THIS ONE LIFE REALLY MATTER

WHO IS THIS CHILD

WHAT DOES SHE MEAN TO ME

I CLOSE MY EYES

AND STILL HER FACE I SEE

SHE IS BUT ONE

HER KIND IS EVERYWHERE

CAN’T YOU SEE THERE’S NO WAY I SHOULD CARE

CAN YOU SEE IT IN THE NIGHT

CAN YOU FEEL THAT IT’S OUT THERE

IT’S THE ARCING OF A LIFE

AND IT’S HANGING IN THE AIR

THOUGH I TRY TO CLOSE MY EYES

AND PRETEND THAT I DON’T KNOW

IN MY HEART

I JUST CAN’T LET IT GO

THERE HAS TO BE ANOTHER WAY FOR ME

A WAY THAT LEADS FROM THIS INSANITY

A WAY THAT LEADS FROM MY DESTRUCTION IN THIS WAY

CAN YOU SEE IT IN THE NIGHT

CAN YOU FEEL THAT IT’S OUT THERE

IT’S THE ARCING OF A LIFE

AND IT’S HANGING IN THE AIR

THOUGH I TRY TO CLOSE MY EYES

AND PRETEND THAT I DON’T KNOW

IN MY HEART

I JUST CAN’T LET IT GO

[Despite his best efforts he cannot bring himself to leave the child to this evil, and collapsing on the piano bench, he tells the devil that he has a deal. Beethoven is now a totally broken man as the fact sinks in that he has lost both his soul and his Tenth Symphony.]

[Mephistopheles dances with delight as he picks up the manuscript never noticing Twist who sneaks over and whispers in Ludwig’s ear, “How do you know that Mephistopheles will keep his word?” Beethoven sits up and repeats the question aloud. Mephistopheles, never looking up from examining his prize, replies that Beethoven can draw up his own wording for a contract that they will write on a page torn from the back of a bible. Beethoven glances questioningly towards Fate who is still watching from the background. She nods her head for even the shadows know that a contract written on such sacred paper is unbreakable, even by the devil himself.]

[Beethoven, totally exhausted, mutters his consent but is unable to write the words that will bring about the destruction of his beloved Tenth. Fate, sensing his dilemma, offers to write down the agreement for him and he hands the paper to her. As he stares out the window Fate writes,]

[It is agreed upon this night, March 26, 1827, between the undersigned, that the music of the Tenth Symphony, composed by Ludwig von Beethoven, first born son of Johann and Maria von Beethoven, of the city of Bonn, shall henceforth be the property of Mephistopheles, Lord of Darkness and first fallen from the grace of God. It is also understood that it is his intention to remove any signs of this music from the memory of man for all eternity. In exchange for the destruction of the aforementioned music it is also agreed that Mephistopheles and all his minions will remove themselves from the life of the child presently sleeping in the gutter directly across from the window of this room. This removal of influence is to be commenced immediately upon signing and to be enforced for all eternity.]

[_____________________ Ludwig Von Beethoven]

[_____________________ Mephistopheles]

[Mephistopheles reads the paper, signs it and pushes it in front of Beethoven. Without even looking at the document the composer signs the paper. Immediately, Mephistopheles reaches over the piano, seizes the Tenth’s manuscript and thrusts it over a lit candle. The papers are engulfed in a wall of flames. But when the flames have died down the devil is stunned to find that not only does the manuscript still exist, it is not even singed. Thrusting it back over the candle it is once again engulfed in flames only to emerge unscathed.]

[Sensing that he has been tricked, he screams for an explanation but Beethoven’s expression tells him that he is as shocked at the turn of events as the Devil himself. As Mephistopheles is glancing once more at the manuscript he hears the sound of Twist giggling in the darkness.]

[When he demands to know what the dwarf is laughing at, Twist can hardly conceal his delight as he explains that the composer’s parents gave birth to a son prior to the maestro’s birth. They had named him Ludwig von Beethoven but the child died within his first year. They then named their second son Ludwig as well. Twist continues, “The man before you is that Ludwig Von Beethoven, the second born son of Johann & Maria Von Beethoven. You have purchased a Tenth Symphony of Ludwig Von Beethoven, first born of Johann & Maria, if he ever writes one.” Mephistopheles glares at Fate, who smiles back at him demurely. Then, throwing the music back at Beethoven, he screams in frustration and disappears in an explosion of smoke and flame.]

[Beethoven is surprised by Mephistopheles’ rapid departure and asks if he is not coming back to collect his soul. To which Fate replies that he never had any claim to his soul.]

[“But Mephistopheles said…”]

[“He is the devil,” Fate replies, “He lies.”]

[“But, there were times when I was rude and cruel to people,” Beethoven stutters.]

[“True, the frustration of your deafness did cause you at times to lash out unfairly at others, but later you would always regret it and apologize. You often went through great lengths to make amends for any hurts you had caused. Believe me Ludwig, you have done well.”]

[And with those words a warm feeling of peace spreads throughout Beethoven’s body and across his soul.]

[When he asks Fate what is to happen next, she gently tells him that it is time for him to rest, for tonight he will dream a new dream within the gates of paradise. And as the words weave their way into his soul, Beethoven lies down on the couch near his piano and begins a new dream.]

22. A Final Dream

[FATE]

LAY YOUR HEAD DOWN

AND SLEEP ON MY SHOULDER

LAY YOUR HEAD DOWN

AND START A NEW DREAM

AND FOR TONIGHT

THE MOMENT IS OVER

DRIFT IN A LULLABY

HERE WHERE THE STARS RESIDE

AND ANGELS ARE ALWAYS SEEN

AND LAY YOUR HEAD DOWN

THE STARS THEY HAVE WHISPERED

HEAR WHAT THEY SAY

AND KNOW THAT IT MEANS

THE MOON IS YOUR GUIDE

THE STARS THEY HAVE KISSED HER

AS SHE GOES GENTLY BY

LIGHT AS A BABY’S SIGH

SAFE ON A FAIRY TALE STREAM

AND START A NEW DREAM

[With the departure of his soul the storm begins to break and a stillness settles over the room as one by one the ghosts and shadows fade away. All seems at peace until the sudden re-appearance of Twist returning through a window. He gazes about the room, a look of mischievous delight spreading across his face. Scampering over to the piano, he takes the manuscript for the Tenth Symphony and then climbing up a bookcase, carefully slips it behind a wall. Here it will remain hidden, the world blissfully unaware of its existence until that one day in the future when it will be discovered and the music will once more live again.]

[THE END]

CHARACTERS:

LUDWIG VON BEETHOVEN - The maestro himself on the last night of his life

FATE - The spirit of Fate. She is a young beautiful woman.

TWIST - Fate’s hunchback dwarf son. Mischievous but not malicious

MEPHISTOPHELES - The devil himself . Evil with a seductive charm and flair.

YOUNG BEETHOVEN - The composer as a young man

MOZART - WOLFGANG AMADEUS himself

THERESA - The legendary, “Immortal Beloved.” The great love of his life.

YOUNG GIRL - An orphan, approximately six years old

THE MUSES - voices of artistic inspiration

(Source: onleatherwings92, via thenweareghosts)

You just learned a bit about me:

  • I am a cuddler.
  • I am a morning person. 
  • I am an only child.
  • I am currently in my pajamas.
  • I am currently pregnant.
  • I am left handed.
  • I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.
  • I bite my nails.
  • I can be paranoid at times.
  • I enjoy country music.
  • I enjoy smoothies.
  • I enjoy talking on the phone.
  • I have a car.
  • I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
  • I have a hidden talent.
  • I have a pet.
  • I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
  • I have all my grandparents.
  • I have been to another country.
  • I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
  • I have or had broken a bone.
  • I have caller I.D. on my phone.
  • I have bathed someone.
  • I have changed a diaper.
  • I have changed a lot over the past year.
  • I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
  • I have had major/minor surgery.
  • I have had my hair cut within the last week.
  • I have mood swings.
  • I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
  • I have rejected someone before.
  • I like the taste of blood.
  • I love Michael Jackson.
  • I love sleeping.
  • I love to shop.
  • I own 100 CDs or more.
  • I own and use a library card.
  • I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
  • I sleep a lot during the day.
  • I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
  • I work at a job that I enjoy.
  • I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
  • I am currently wearing socks.
  • I am tired.
  • I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
  • I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.

I have/had:

  • Graduated high school.
  • Smoked cigarettes.
  • Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
  • Collected something really stupid.
  • Gone to a concert.
  • Helped someone.
  • Spun turn tables.
  • Watched four movies in one night.
  • Been broken up with.
  • Taken a college level course.
  • Been in a car accident.
  • Been in an earthquake.
  • Watched someone die.
  • Been to a funeral.
  • Burned yourself.
  • Ran a marathon.
  • Your parents got divorced. 
  • Cried yourself to sleep.
  • Spent over $200 in one day.
  • Cheated on someone.
  • Been cheated on.
  • Written a 10 page letter.
  • Had a best friend.
  • Lost someone you loved.
  • Skipped school.
  • Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
  • Stolen books from the library.
  • Been in a mental hospital.
  • Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
  • Fired a gun.
  • Been in a school play.
  • Been fired from a job.
  • Taken a lie detector test.
  • Swam with dolphins.
  • Written poetry.
  • Read more than 20 books a year.
  • Gone to Europe.
  • Loved someone you couldn’t have. 
  • Used a colouring book over age 12.
  • Had stitches.
  • Taken a taxi.
  • Had a hamster.
  • Dyed your hair.
  • Had something pierced.
  • Gotten straight A’s.
  • Your parents sent you to a shrink. (Technically I was tricked into group therapy)
  • Been handcuffed.

My hair is naturally the color:

  • Light brown
  • Medium brown 
  • Dark brown/Red
  • Blonde
  • Black
  • Dirty blonde
  • Strawberry blonde/Ginger
  • Multicoloured

My eyes are:

  • Brown
  • Blue/Grey
  • Green
  • Hazel
  • Light brown
  • A combination of things

I am:

  • Male
  • Female
  • Other

People sometimes label me as:

  • Slut
  • Girly
  • Ugly
  • Nerd
  • Other
  • Dark
  • Weird

Some of my biggest fears are:

  • Spiders/other insects
  • Dying
  • Doctor/Dentist appointments
  • Hospitals
  • Needles
  • Disease
  • Being alone in the dark
  • Heights
  • Small spaces
  • Oceans/large bodies of water
  • Holes
  • Large animals
  • Small animals
  • Open spaces
  • Lightning

I have:

  • A friend with benefits
  • A laptop in my room
  • A television in my room
  • Good grades
  • My own car
  • Married parents

(Source: sheshallhave, via moleculess)

How amazing it is to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head.
Nina LaCour  

(Source: poetrist, via ohaitherehowareyoudoingthatsnice)